Words suck

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As a kid I used to think that words are the coolest shit ever. They were the only way I could feel less lonely. I could never get enough of them.

I used to feel through words one can solve any problem until I couldn't anymore. 

Now, at 25, I feel, maybe words aren't as they good as they seem.

Maybe words were invented to please others more than oneself. They lose their identity if no one reads them and thats their ultimate truth.

I have realised now, that we are all very silent people.

We all have nothing to say.

We all are disappointed by the nothingness surrounding us.

Some fight it to make some noise, some submit to it. 

We all are aware of the massive silence that controls us. 

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