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 I have been overthinking what to post so much that I ended up not posting anything here. I mean, whats the point even, who cares. People are so busy living their lives making things work and what not, how does it even matter to them. Also the weirdest shit happened, my college friend is getting married on 20th, it's legit the dumbest shit ever. I mean why are people still not done with getting married. Also I think I am gonna kill myself. I won't, obviously. I will just rot on earth. My life is shit.

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