Nobody's shit

As a kid I used to think that words are the coolest shit ever. They were the only way I could feel less lonely. I could never get enough of them. I used to feel through words one can solve any problem until I couldn't anymore.  Now, at 25, I feel, maybe words aren't as they good as they seem. Maybe words were invented to please others more than oneself. They lose their identity if no one reads them and thats their ultimate truth. I have realised now, that we are all very silent people. We all have nothing to say. We all are disappointed by the nothingness surrounding us. Some fight it to make some noise, some submit to it.  We all are aware of the massive silence that controls us. 

      I am so jealous of normal people, who don't suffer from so much anxiety, who are able to talk nicely to each other, stay in their shitty world without an ounce of curiosity. I wish I was them. I am so rude damnit. I wish I had a lot of friends I could chill with. I wish I could be productive without overthinking productivity and how its an idea propagated by our society because they were too afraid of the capabilities of an idle brain. I hate how I question everything so much that it feels like anything I do is only doomed. I feel so jealous man, of all these people living their little boring lives happily, without any regrets, without any questions. Partying like dumbfucks and imitating each other. I mean I wish I was them. I wish I could just let go that easily. 

 I have been overthinking what to post so much that I ended up not posting anything here. I mean, whats the point even, who cares. People are so busy living their lives making things work and what not, how does it even matter to them. Also the weirdest shit happened, my college friend is getting married on 20th, it's legit the dumbest shit ever. I mean why are people still not done with getting married. Also I think I am gonna kill myself. I won't, obviously. I will just rot on earth. My life is shit.

people are so damn dumb, if only I was a little less lazy I would be called so smart!

 Hey, look at me, I have a blog, that nobody, literally nobody visits so I can just screw it up without any regrets

 Shitposting is the best when you know noone is gonna read it anyway

 I really feel like killing myself right now but sadly I don't have a good enough reason

 once u start travelling u feel its the solution to all your problems however eventually u end up realising that u have wasted a lot of money so now u have one more problem